We take for granted the things that seem small, also the things or people we interact with on the daily basis. behavior sometimes gets me into very difficult situations quite frankly. Procrastination is a very big deal for a lot of people in society. I wish I had learned early on that there are repercussions for such behavior Time really does wait for anybody, between work bills and life I get stuck in predicaments where I forget, or just completely just don’t have the time to get what is needed to be done. Which to me at times is more of an excuse because 24 hours in a day is plenty.

 organization plays a very big part in this problem. Organization is something I take for granted. It directly ties together with my problem with time. organization is a skill that I am very invested in practicing eventually making it something that helps me with time management.  

My Heath is something I also take for granted, it’s not that I think I’m above illness, but as I get older I’ve learned that health is just like owning a German/foreign vehicle. Preventive measures need to be taken in order to stop serious elements. I know I’m not alone in this, I’ve  met people who don’t go to the hospital, one of my friends tell me he hasn’t seen a doctor for 8 years witch is quite scary too me,being someone who goes at the least every two years which isn’t good either.

 

I am grateful for my family. I love how close we are, I can tell my sister or mother anything. They give me very useful advice especially in hard time, which is important for me. Advice from friend aren’t very reliable and can be choppy sometimes people tend to tell others what they want to hear, so I tend to only find advice from family, knowing that they will give me the harsh truth when it is needed.

I’m learning how to really appreciate life for what it is, I need to understand that there will always be variable/ things that may ruin certain things, but that it is entirely up to me on how I handle situations.

 
I walk this earth unsure of everything. I sometimes wonder and reflect on who I am, or what I am, never have I seemed to fit into any particular mold, you could call me the odd ball, the weirdo. My unconventional way of thinking makes me believe such things. Fitting the mold for the longest was very important. Through a lot of self-reflection, reading and just overall wanting to understand my personal behavior, has helped me on the journey to  discover the things I truly value.



I learned one thing that overshadows the feeling of conforming to beliefs or expectations, that thing is self-love. This is a concept most people are aware of, matter fact I was aware of it as well but I realized quickly that if fitting in meant doing things or acting in ways that conformed to peoples beliefs or expectations. I realized that in no way am I doing my self any service by believing in that value. I say this not to rebel but to really posse the question, could one really love one’s self when doing things that strictly conform to an ideal that isn’t there’s.



The purpose of life is something I truly believe none of us will have or have enough time in our life to describe, people have different variations of what they feel the meaning is but the ongoing search

When I move I notice

I cant keep focus.

My mind is in constant race

Without any constant pace

When I move I notice

Time is expensive

paying the price every day,

day to day chores are demanding

Always in the need of an extra push

Either moving to fast or to slow

never an in between

when I move I notice

a challenge is good

easy or difficult

 I can climb any mountain

there is no slope to steep

no hill to high

although a challenge

fight threw and keep

moving   













for enlightenment is never ending.